"You Can't Handle The Truth!": Deciphering The Real From The Fake: The Conclusion of Handling My Mis-educaton

Lately I've been running into a lot of different information regarding society, spirituality, humanity, and a host of other myths and systems of beliefs that would truly drive a sane man mad. Surprisingly, a good bit of the information is true, drawing from history and little known facts that would undoubtedly cause one to dig deeper in efforts to challenge whats been said, other information could be charged to conspiracy theories and a lack of supporting evidence to support claims. Yet even with all the different information, theories, and proof of lies and wrong doing, I've chosen to turn a blind eye of sorts. Besides, ignorance is bliss, right?

Not exactly. Just because I'm deciding to put on blinders won't keep me from seeking the truth in efforts to draw my own conclusions nor will it keep the truth from finding me. Life always gives you what you need exactly when you need it and not a second sooner. Its kind of like religion, we all believe in God, The All, The Creator, Jesus, Allah, or whatever name or title that floats your boat but within each subset there are different sets of morals and standards that the other doesn't necessarily agree with because they have different beliefs, or codes of conduct that they believe is the only way of life. That's what this is for me. My choosing to shift my own paradigm and choosing what I believe, that for some won't particularly make sense, but makes all the sense in the world to little ole ME. Now, this won't be me wonder around with a half  head of braids chanting "na-jee-romba" in a maroon cloak like Martin Lawrence on the episode when he joined the cult (that's still hilarious, I love reruns!), more than that it's me allowing truth to enter my consciousness while allowing the universe to show me what exactly that information means for me and how I can apply it to become better mind, body and spirit daily; it's me choosing to see things in truth and deciding whether I want to participate.

There are so many different schools of thoughts, too many actually to recite and besides that, I couldn't even if I tried, for a lack of genuine understanding, but the thing that makes the most sense for me in the approach I've chosen to take is first educating myself, after that its choosing to draw from it what I will and leaving the rest . Facts of the matter is there is a really big world out there, impossible to digest in one sitting so deeming myself UN-educated rather than MIS-educated doesn't really benefit me either. That being said a few goals to help me win this battle is getting to know myself and The Creator and how we relate,  along with meeting and vibing with different people to educate me on what they know, be it cars, parenting, religion, economics, sex, drugs, rock and roll, and in turn offering them my knowledge to become, theoretically a student of life and as a student I am going to listen and learn as much as possible to pass all the test or at least get a high C (get it?!).  For me that's the beginning to becoming a know it all (or a "I know someone who knows all about"-it all ), just kidding!

 I'm not removed from the reality that here on earth are certain systems that absolutely control any and every single thing we digest, from food to water to the t.v. we watch to the clothes we buy, some call it "Illuminati" I call it the "selfish hatin' muthafuckers trynna hold us back" (in my Rick Rosey voice). What I know for sure is that we've all been placed here for a reason, and it's left up to us individually to decipher what that purpose is and how the Creator desires for us to use it. We were all wonderfully and beautifully created in his image so whatever the gift given it belongs to Him, so who are we not to give back and share with the world what we've been given. In my personal belief the first step to doing so is going within and hearing that "still small voice" some call it a hunch, intuition, butterflies, "something told me", I choose to call it my "inner G", and that voice, once you've gotten to thoroughly know it, will always be the absolute honest to GOD truth! And you can take that to the bank!

Lesson Learned: Everything ain't for everybody, so do what works for YOU!

Oh, Shit...This is awkward...

I've been single for awhile now and I still can't say that I have a strong handle on this dating thing. Sure I've dated guys and had a few pointless drifters and some meaningful encounters as well, but what happens when your honesty is not very well received? AWKWARD SHIT happens, that's what!

I've just started schmoozing with a friend of a friend and he is a pretty cool dude. We've spoken on a few different occasions and seem to have taken a likeness to one another. The truth is that the both of us are recently out of relationships (he and his ex broken up for roughly 6 months, my ex and I 7 months) so both of us are pretty much unofficially operating in a "I like-you-but-you-may-be-crazy-so-I-still-have-my wall-up"  manner, yet it's pretty clear that we're both looking for the same thing...Loooove. Hell, at this point who isn't. However I'm pretty sure there are certain thing that shouldn't be said and done in the very early stages of courting, like oh I don't know, telling a person that you Facebook stalked them for instance (...yup, don't do that).

This guy and I met at that same friend's house party where there was lots of drinking, and loud music and fun, not to mention dim lighting (whats a house party without dim lighting?). Add those things to the fact that I can't really see at night and you have a perfect recipe for oblivion. I'm all for meeting new people so when she called and told me he was interested I looked at it as an opportunity to expand my offline friends list and see what he was about worse case secenrio we woulnd be compatible . One convo led to another and now I'm interested too. Enter curiosity. This guy and I had had a brief interaction at the party but as I once stated, there was LOTS of drinking. So curiosity got the best of me. Which led to me going through my friend's friends list and looking at his profile, (what I could see anyway) which then led to me jokingly texting him, and that exchange went a lil' sumtin like this:

ME: "I went fb stalkin today....I had to get a clearer pic of the man who's been sayin sweet nothings in my ear lol."

HIM: ...

ME: (13 minutes later) Oh, shit. This is awkward  "Disregard"

HIM: (about an hour later) "Wooow! really lol I can send you some"

Sure some people look at Facebook as a means to meet new people and keep in touch with those they can't see on a regular bases, but the caveat to that is some people use it as a means of being voyeuristic and spying on ex's and making up stoopid shit about other people and themselves. I mean seriously, who goes and looks up someone on Facebook to see if they are attracted to them after already having spoke with them on the phone for a week (did I just throw myself under the bus?).

Albeit, I don't consider myself one of those people who are constantly on FB looking at pics of ex's and making up statuses about how absolutely fabulous my life is without them while really I'm on the absolute verge of a breakdown. The truth of the matter is I really am on Facebook for the intent and purposes of networking. But it was something about this guy that really intrigued me, so much so that I took to Facebook to see exactly what I was getting myself into.

He eventually asked me to call him to "discuss" what I had seen which was code for, "I need to ask you some questions to see how crazy you are" then we made jokes about it and moved on. He was pretty cool about it and I was relieved! It's funny how in this day and age we really do things in a snap shot manner. Post pics now, regret horrible comments later. I'm glad this time around my voyeuristic ways weren't looked upon as weird or stalkerish which if he was to have that notion I wouldn't totally diagree with him. But in this situation, I am just a woman trying to get to know a stranger from a damn near lightless basement in efforts to make sure she was not wasting time with another pointless drifter or a booger bear... Shoot me!

Lesson Learned: Don't stalk people's Facebook page...well, don't tell them you're stalking them anyway! At that point you become a stalker!

What would you have done???